Muse.

Yet another Christmas has gone by. My gosh I’m getting old.

Well basically everyone in my family is revamping their rooms. Its unfair, I don’t have any new furnishings due to the small space. Oh..I think my room has really bad feng-shui. There are like 3 blades/swords in my room now. Tsk.

Ok this entry is of utter nonsense. Bye

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Let me guard a life.

A new chapter unfolds in my scintillating adventure of life. Mr Eng is now on course to be a SAF Lifeguard. Apart from the damned journey to camp, I’m pretty satisfied with this vocation. After all I’ve always feel connected and a part of the water, and it gives me a chance to even out my singlet tan!

My chest feels heavy these days. I’ve never felt an emptiness this vast in my heart before. I’m confused as to how I stand in everyone’s lives. I need an escape badly, I really do. God hear my cry, grant this wish for me. You have no idea how much it will mean to me.

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Pray.

And so it has been. A quick glance over the shoulder brought me reminiscing the good ol’ days in that secluded lagoon. A knock on the head and a quick slingshot slipped me back into reality.

A soldier of Singapore, a pawn of a war-chess game. This phase has disconnected me from almost everyone and the outside world. Yet, it has taught me to relish and embrace my humble family. Now, all I can do is to listen and watch. But as I continue to watch the world go by, it feels like the stake just went in an inch deeper in my heart. The people whom I treasure unexpectedly leave, well not all, but it still ain’t a small number. God has prepared me though, because I’m glad I have a father who understands my interests, my passion and my meaning of life. Backpack nestling on my back, a trusty companion slung over my neck. I will see the world.

Confident I may seem, but I’ve met another moat. Who will it be at the end? Who will it be that will see the world with me? My worthy friends? A stranger along the course? Or the person that melted my heart? Or will I be alone? All I can do is to pray, and pray.

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